Sympathy is not a VERTUE! ;)

There is one thing about me that I can find very fustrating but that is good at the same time. I am just way too sympathetic. Sympathy is a good qualiy to have but when effect how you see your self and it makes excuses for every one all the time it becomes a serious drag! There is a certain point where sympathy should be felt.

With me sympathy is a constant excuse for someone I care about which then leads to me believing it is my fault, which leads to quilt. It truthfully doesnt make sence but that is just the way it is with me. I am constantally making excuses which just hurts me because I am leaving myself vulnerable to pain. I never stick up for my self which allows people to walk all over me. This can be very hurtful and fustrating! I guess that I have become so upsessed with how others see me and to make sure I am not a bad person that I am afraid how others whould react to sticking up for myself. Another part of it might be I dont know how to stick up for myself. I dont know how it got this far but I have always just been like this as long as I can remember. Now dont get me wrong I love being sypathetic and I believe you should,I seem to go a little to far. I also think that the more sympathy you have,the more you can relate to others. Your heart is softened by sympathy too. Which might account for why I am emotional. (lol) Sympathy is a good thing if i just learn how to use it the best way I can for me and others not going overboard with it.

Sympathy is a very good thing I just need to learn how to use sympathy in the right amounts so I dont allow myself to be walked all over. I almost use it as a weapon against myself which I shouldnt be doing. Life is meant to be enjoyed so I better get this Sympathy under control!